I went through a year or so phase recently with a lot of loss.
My father, wife, cash, and health all left me in a year’s window and I had no more will to live.
I was just existing in the depths each day trying to find something to get me out of bed. I think just living each day and not thinking ahead or behind is what got me, and is getting me, through this dark time. I’m now starting to feel some hope and some light about my life’s future and I must say it’s a welcome feeling. Heating, Ventilation, and A/C equipment repairs keep my mind tied up during the days but the days can close in on you. I think three mantras that absolutely help are; stay calm, talk positive, and forgive mistakes. The Heating, Ventilation, and A/C supplier where I toil was kind enough to keep me aboard when I was not in a good mood each day at toil but trying to put on a happy face for the customers. I think they all saw right through it though. People are much better at studying emotions than my good friend and I are at faking them. I like laboring on heating and cooling equipment and helping customers with their Heating, Ventilation, and A/C questions as it makes me feel like I am a useful and needed person in this town. This week I am going to be kinder to myself than normal and more patient than I’ve been to myself recently. I’m going to wipe my HEPA filter in my apartment because my allergies are starting to annoy me. That’s about it for the day. Enjoy.