I went through a year or so phase recently with a lot of loss.
My father, husband, cash, and health all left me in a year’s window and I had no more will to live.
I was just existing in the depths each day trying to find something to get me out of bed. I guess just living each day and not thinking ahead or behind is what got me, and is getting me, through this dark time. I’m now starting to feel some hope and some light about my life’s future and I must say it’s a welcome feeling. Heating, Ventilation, and A/C unit repairs keep my mind tied up while in the afternoons however the afternoons can close in on you. I guess three mantras that easily help are; stay calm, talk positive, and forgive mistakes. The Heating, Ventilation, and A/C corporation where I labor was kind enough to keep me aboard when I was not in a wonderful mood each day at labor however trying to put on a cheerful face for the customers. I guess they all saw right through it though. People are much better at studying emotions than we are at faking them. I like working on heating and cooling unit and helping customers with their Heating, Ventilation, and A/C questions as it makes me feel like I am a useful and needed guy in this town. This week I am going to be kinder to myself than normal and more patient than I’ve been to myself recently. I’m going to scrub my HEPA filter in my property because my allergies are starting to annoy me. That’s about it for the day. Enjoy.