I went through a year or so period recently with a lot of loss.
My father, wife, money, and health all left me in a year’s window and I had no more will to live. I was just existing in the depths each day trying to find something to get me out of bed. I think just living each day and not thinking ahead or behind is what got me, and is getting me, through this dark time. I’m now starting to feel some hope and some light about my life’s future and I must say it’s a welcome feeling. HVAC equipment repairs keep my mind busy during the days but the nights can close in on you. I think three mantras that really help are; stay calm, talk positive, and forgive mistakes. The HVAC company where I work was kind enough to keep me aboard when I was not in a good mood each day at work but trying to put on a happy face for the customers. I think they all saw right through it though. People are much better at reading emotions than we are at faking them. I like working on heating and cooling equipment and helping customers with their HVAC questions as it makes me feel like I am a useful and needed person in this town. Today I am going to be kinder to myself than normal and more patient than I’ve been to myself recently. I’m going to clean my HEPA filter in my house because my allergies are starting to annoy me. That’s about it for the day. Enjoy.